Slippery Slope

Today I started down a very slippery slope.  I find myself on this slope about every 2 -3 weeks into my weight loss journey.  I do really well and then after a nice loss I start fudging (no pun attended)!  I've actually lost 3.5 pounds in the past 2 weeks, so I tell myself, I can allow some wiggle room in my regimen. A bite here, a taste there, a donut or a handful (or 2 or 10) of animal crackers...NO BIGGIE!!

And so it started today...like clockwork.

It started out like a normal day.  I measured my cereal and milk.  I took the Lego Warrior and the Princess to Michael's for a craft class with a friend and then we went to Stevie B's for lunch.  I actually did pretty good there (I thought!) I had 2 slices of pizza and then a nice big salad.  Then we headed home.  After a while I started thinking, "Hmmmm, I'm hungry!" I walk into the pantry (mistake #1) and what do I see?

So, I take one handful...I mean one handful can't kill me....or COULD IT?!?!?!  One handful leads to LOTS-MORE-HANDFULS!!!  After 10 or so handfuls, I walk away from the big tub of animal crackers.  By now, though, the slope has become VERY SLIPPERY!!  Around 4 o'clock we head to the grocery store.  I'm already feeling guilty about the animal crackers, which is not a good start, it's almost dinner time, so I'm hungry, and I'm just altogether feeling crappy about my crappy decisions.  So...we make it the last aisle (I've already walked past the double stuff Oreos that are BOGO...TWICE!! (insert small victory dance here)) Then I see it...like a beacon in the night...the Krispy Kreme Donut stand.  Usually, I'm pretty good about walking past that...but not today.  My brain is saying, "You've already messed up today, what's one more thing?"  Guess what I come home with?

Not one, BUT TWO bags of donuts!! :-( Ugh..

There is a happy ending, however.  After returning from the grocery store and eating a few donuts (and by a few I mean 4 or 5) and a few (2 or 3) more handfuls of animal crackers I had just about convinced myself that the slope was too steep to overcome, so I should just gorge myself with whatever I could find.  Then, in walks the Hubby.  He sees that I haven't started dinner yet and I'm sure eyes the bags of donuts on the counter.  He asks if I'm planning on going to boot camp tonight.  My first thought is, "NO...can't you see I'm wallowing in my own self pity? I've screwed up today...the rest of the day is a loss...no coming back from this!"  However, somewhere deep inside a tiny voice says, "YES...you can go to boot camp and undo some of what you've done today...you can do it and you will!!"

And so I went...and I kicked BOOTY!!  I know I can't undo all of my bad decisions today...but that one decision to go to boot camp has re-energized me!  I feel much better about myself, now.  Again, small victories.  So, I'm celebrating that I went to boot camp tonight!!  I also came home from the grocery store with LOTs of fruits and vegetables and good-for-me food, too.  Another victory.  And, can I hear an "AMEN" for NOT coming home with BOGO Oreos?